It's been a mth plus since i last updated liaos. Well, been trying hard to cut down on my drinking and pubbing alr. Anyway, my significant 'someone' found himself a new gal. As for me, i've gotten a new guy afta two mths plus. Finally, i decided to move on lerrs. No point holding onto something that aint meant to be mine. Recently de life v chaotic. Luckily for me, my family are always ard. My friends have been supporting me too. Thx to all peers out there~ Actually the reason why i wanna update blog is simply bcos there are sooooo many things i've been kiping inside me..
Yupps. It's indeed true i still haven completely let go of 'him'. Told ya i need time. Don force me to say things out when i dun feel like it. You asked if i feel guilty towards you. All i can say is that i'm afraid. I mean all the things i said. Including the things i said that day at KeeHan's hse de staircase. You're a gd bf. For this, i swear. I've been hurt once. Deeply. I dun wanna get hurt anymor. This is the reason why i'm afraid. I no longer trust. Not only to you. Get it mahs? So many things i wanna say. But i cant jux show you my true self yet. I need time to overcome. To accustome to yor life, yor style. I know yor frens dun hv a gd impression of me. That's bcos they dunno me well. Dun tell me you still dun understand me the least bit by now? I'm stressed up. I mean it. I no longer wan ppl to think i'm weak liaos. You dunno me that well. So you cant see how drastic i've changed. I dun wish to shun from problems. I jux dun hv the courage to face it. I may appear strong. Yahs. That is only to ppl who dunno me well. Sigh, jux rmb i'm trying hard. I've got many things to fan over. My family, yor family, my friends, yor friends, etc. ur world is so diff. Think over what i've once said to you. The things i said at blk5 when we're alone. We live by faith, not by sight. See things through yor heart, not by yor eyes only~
Say sooo much, 'you' understand mahs? Not that i dun wanna tell you directly. Jux dunno how to say. Sigh... Hope you really do understand the things i'm expressing. I will stand by the promises i gave you. Not gonna say goodbye easily de.
-JUST GIVE ME SOME TIME-
[Jerica]
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