Short post today yea? Well, today i stood on my boy de bike from his house all the way to GREAT WORLD. DotS.. So tiring. But nvm. Kinda missed the old days nahs =) Anyway, when we were on our way back home, saw loads and loads of STARS! Hmmm... Not gonna comment much about it. But it's pretty nice =) Well, been thinking about many things. Hais. Not much comments too. Jux wanna keep my mindcept positive. Anyway, this sunday gg Sentosa with my boy and frenx. Hope to enjoy bahs.
WHAT THE FCUK! So what if i defend him? Like i've said lahs. I came back to yUu and hurt him in a way. Is treating him like a friend my fault? THink carefully. Does the fault really lies in miiee? WHy do yUu have such low-self esteem? No confidence, no faith, no trust. SInce the day we patched up till now ar, how many times have we argued over him? Like i've said. If i can come back to yUu after such a long period of time, why worry? Aiyahs, i dunno lahs. yUu said something about making miiee forget him in 21 days, but the effort is not there. I really dunno how to go on like this lahs. Hais. Don type liaos. No point saying all these, since i've alr lost so much lerrs....
What's meant to be, will be.
'JeRiCa
NO MOOD.. Simply sucks. WTF is going on in my bloody life? It seems like everything's changed. Yahs. I've changed. From the gal whom i used to love, to the gal whom i despise loads. Stop it lahs. Jux stop everything. I no longer wann anything. Jux give miiee back the past that i adored. The beautiful life has gone. Entering a world of isolation. Intoxicated no more.. I'm the one who chose this road eh? Nobody to blame. Only miiee. Yes, miiee again.. I dun even know myself anymore, let alone yUu people out there. Nobody knows miiee anymore. I need some peace. Jux a bit can? I need to take a breather. Get it?? Not only yUu're hurt. I HURT TOO kaes? I dun wanna justify my acts by saying much. I've lost quite a lot. For someone whom i love. In the end? He's asking miiee if i love him. HaaHs! Irony eh? Forget it lahs. At this point of time, no matter what i wanna say is of no use. So, i'm gonna stop all tat i wanna say.
Lost SAPPHIRE, CRYSTAL, etc..
Lost SHIZHEN, SERAPHINA, LOUISA, EE REN, etc..
HAD ENOUGH...
Sorry to all my peers whom i've been neglecting all this while.
I cant mend anything anymore..
SPEECHLESS,
'JeRiCa
Just came back from xinqqy ex derrs hse. He's drunk lahs.. Everything is so clear to miiee now. Shall forget all the past. He's moved on, and is happy with his life. That's good. I no longer need to feel guilty anymore. Hmmm.. Deardear was drunk cos of miiee. What the fcuk. It's bcos of miiee again. Hais.. I didn't know what to do. Lousy galfren eh? HaaHs~ I know i know.. Anyway, i was drunk too. I know i shouldn't be. But, at that point of time, all i wann is some peace. For a moment, i jux wanna be alone. Jux wanna have a peaceful sleep. Hais.. I dunno lahs. Dear is so sweet to miiee lahs. Hais.. DUn say liaos. Head is damn heavy. Wanna have my beauty sleep liaos.
Drunkard JeRiCa
=(
Wah!! What The Fcuk! Will be here prayinq for yUu derrS. *PheW* Relieved when i heard tat yUu din do anything with tat gal.. Dunno why i so happy to hear tat lahs. Got the feeling is i landed yUu in this state derrs. If we're still tgt, things wun happened liaos. Sorry yea. What happened to yOr tagboard! Arrgh~ I wanted to copy all the things we wrote inside before derrs.. Jux kiping it as memories lahs. I believe yUu've alr moved on quite well lerrs yea? Soooo many gals in friendster. HaahS~ Since tat's the case, i'll try my best too. It's not tat we can't click, it's jux tat we met at the wrong timing like i've always said. Maybe, Jux maybe, when we're both older bahs (Like what yUu've said).. As for my dear, hais.. When yUu asked miiee if tat song is what i wanna say to him not, i went speechless. I hope yUu can understand. YupS =)
Think i gonna stop here lerrs bahs. Kinda tired to say anything more..
ToO mUcH tO saY, tOo LittLe TimE tO eXpReSs..
'JeRiCa
Hmmm.. Jux came back from ViVo with my guy, birr, ah kor, shengwei, tobi and chizhi.. HaaHs~ Played wu gui wu gui tiao, chee go pa, and what hai dai hai dai derrs. LoLs~ So lame lahs! Anyway, really speechless lahs. Dear, there are some things tat i really dunno how to tell yUu. Whether this relationship is gonna work out or not, jux rmb tat i've loved yUu deeply once. Real deep. I know, i'm hurting yUu right now. I too know tat somethings i cant see, yUu saw. Hais~ Like i've said, all i need is time. Cos even though i'm tgt wf xinqqy ex for jux three whole weeks, i dare say he left a mark in my life. I wish to really express all the things i wanna say in my blog. But i'm afraid yUu'll get more hurt. As for xinqqy ex. Really wann have a good talk with yUu. Long talk. If possible, meet up tmr kaes? Then we go toning. Got tons of things i wanna say to yUu...Kaes lahs, stop here first. Continue when i'm free bahs =)
With nothing at all,
'JeRiCa_DiaMonD
Wasted trip to toa payoh! WTF.. ANyway, went to xinqqy ex hse just now. To pass him his things and take back some stuffs. Memories sial. When i saw him, all i was thinking was 'god dammit, i hurt such a great guy!' Hais, when we shared a hug, all i can do is cry and cry.. Well, mixed mixed feelings. Feeling so different now. Everything changed. There are so many things tat i want to say, but i think keeping it inside is better for all three of us. I know i've hurt both of yUu. Am really speechless now. Have been leading my life with tears everyday since the day xinqqy ex and miiee brk-up. So many promises not fufilled.. Mr. K said he'll try his best to make miiee forget xinqqy ex in 21 days. HaaHS~ Jiayou bahs. I guess tat's all i can say. Cos for now, he's still quite important yea? Sorry if i hurt yUu by saying these. But yUu should know why right? I've been having long talks with yUu for so many days lerrs. HAis... I really dunno what to do!! So fed-up with myself! Arrgh~ Missing everything badly. All the old days.. When i'm so carefree. If yUu nv let miiee go, i'll nv meet xinqqy ex. Things wun turn out this way. Yet i know, yUu did this for gd reasons. Hais.. I dunno what else can i say. Jux let nature take its course bahs..
Xinqqy ex: yUu said yUu've nv walked into my heart.
Lemme tell yUu..
yUu did.
But yUu left miiee first.
People know how to treasure only when they lost something/someone important.
I sincerely hope tat yUu can find a good gal.
Things tat i've once said to yUu.
I meant it.
ANyway, we can still be bestie kaes?
Always..
KK bOyFreN: After so long, we're back tgt again.
I know, it's hard on yUu.
Cos there are shadows of him.
If yUu find it really hard, pls let go.
I dun wann see any of yUu crying cos of miiee anymore.
He's important to miiee.
& yUu know why.
DUn think so much for now.
Let nature take it's course.
Stop saying yUu're dumb!
Cos yUu arent =)
ANyway, i LoVe yUu
With cOnFusIon YeT aqaIn,
'JeRiCa_DiaMonD
Well, just had a long talk with my guy(KK). Can't stop crying. I'm feeling so lousy. I dun wish to hurt xinqq in any ways. Certainly not his kiddys too. I miss those kiddys damn much. & i feel like something is gone from my life. Love e days when ah yang wud call miiee 'DA SAO', e days when ah shan ask miiee to play mahjong, e days when ah han cheated while playing cards, e days when ah le and mIIee 'eat lollipops'.. In short, i'm just feeling guilty! Xinqq, i'm sorry. Real sorry. I know, it'll be hard for yUu to break the news to yOr family. Hais. Sorry. DUn mean to do this derrs. Hais.. Anyway, thanks yea? FOr yOr blessings. I bless yUu find yOr better half soon. Xinqq, though we are tgt for only three weeks, yUu brought miiee so much joy yUu can nv imagined. Really thanks. No worries, i'm happy with my guy now. He's a changed man! =) My birthday yUu'll be coming right? Yahs, i'll be gg up yOr hse tmr to tk my things and return yUu yOr things. Will call yUu derrs. Meet up for meals yea? =) Well, to all my peers out there, no worries. If this time round, something similar happens, i'll let go derrs =) K lahs, gotta go. Take care evryone. ESP: xInqq =)
BACK WITH MR K.
ALRIGHTS?
NO negative comments from anyone yahs?
=)
HaaHS~ To think tat i'm still here feeling lost.. Xingan?? Hmmm.. Good for yUu then. I shall find myself a good hubby. LoLs! & i think i found him already lahs.. =) Everybody will be so shocked!! Wahahahaha!! =D Sad?? Hmmm.. Don think yUu're gonna feel tat way eh.. Sweetie, find yOrself a good gal bahs. It's not much of a prob anyway.. yUu're as pop as ever! LoLs! Anyway, it's none of my prob liaos lerrs. yUu can be yOrself again! GO towning/bugis every weekend. It'll be so great for yUu lahs. As for those kiddys of yOrs, i still adore them as much. Gonna bring them out someday if yUu allow, tat is.. Speechless at this point of time. It seems like yUu've always been the one enduring eh? LoLs! On the first day we're tgt, i told yUu alr. It'll be a short-lived r/s.. yUu Prove miiee right =) Since yUu've had attempted the option, it's fine with miiee ^^ By the way, i'm back with 'him'. LoLs! Thanks yea? For everything.
^Back in his arms on 21st Nov 06'^
'JeRiCa_DiaMonD
=)
It's been so long.. So very long since i last cried. I really dunno what to do anymore. I've tried hard!! Why must things turn this way?? When i saw 'his' nick, my tears jux dropped and dropped. What is happening to miiee? I jux wann to be happy.. Stop it!! Dun shed tears anymore.. No mood update. Continue tmr.. Sorry..
With sadness,
'JeRiCa
Went to Great World ytd.. Met up with judy, michelle, birr,etc.. Well, going down to tat place is quite an awful experience. Afraid to see 'him'. & oh my gosh! I did saw him alrights! Initially, wanted to chat like friends derrs. But heard from judy tat he said something quite nasty lahs. Hais.. Why cant we be friends anymore? I mean, yUu've got a gal also wad. It's like, we are all leading our lives peacefully now mahs.. Since yUu've made it clear tat yUu don wann miiee back tat time, then why are yUu always leading miiee on? Stop it lahs.. I jux wann a stable relationship now~ No longer wann to hang on by e edge of e cliff. Yuu've had enuff of miiee. So, stop it lerrs. Though i cant say for sure i've alr gotten use to life without yUu, but i dare say i'm trying hard. Tat's all i wanna say i guess. Take good care of Yorself. Last long with yOr gal =)
To: BoYFreN
Sensitive bOy.. Dun worry. I'm not gonna run away kaes?
HaaHs~
Be spending the rest of my life disturbing yUu!!
MuaCkieS!!
0300 pm
WitH lOvE aNd cOnFuSioN,
'JeRiCa_DiaMonD
Hmmm.. Ytd went to town with my beloved. At first wanted to watch COLIC derrs. Hais, miss it again~ Cos we pei my elder sista walk here walk there. HaaHs~ Nvm lahs dear.. We can catch it some other time. Anyway, we went to Orchard Hawker. The one near Hotel Meridien derrs. Guess what? We drank beer and ordered cockles. & my fav Shrimp Paste Chicken. HaaHs~ Nv have i eva done this with my boyfren derrs. LoLs~ Though it was jux a simple supper, i quite like it. Love the way we behaved like v close friends. We can talk about everything under the sun. Hmmm.. Loving it!! =) Dearest, yUu really give mIIee a new life eh. But pls rmb what i've said to yUu kaes? Anyway, after our supper, we went home (our home) & continue drinking again. HaaHs~ This time round, it was my idea lahs. Cos i prefer liquor than beer mahs. But we drank a bit then slp liaos. Cos my dearest have to book in. Today got duty lahs. Sians. Can only see him tmr! Arrgh~ Pek Chek.. LoLs.. Kaes lahs. My hands are tired liaos. Update when i'm free bahs..
I'll spend my whole life loving yUu...
'JeRiCa
1110am
Woah! It's been quite some time since my last post liaos ars.. HaaHs. Sorry Sorry.. This ish gonna be a long one yea. Went to escape with boyfren and those kiddy of his on the 12th NOV 06'.. It was GREAT!! Seeing evrybody enjoying themselves. Hmmm.. It's been long long long since i last laughed like tat. Everything about tat day was great lahs. My boy shouted he loves mIIee when we were inside 'PEPSI'. HaaHs. Kinda lame but it's sweet lahs.. After escape we went back to yewtee to eat. He ordered SWEET & SOUR PORK! & two other my fav dishes!! Thanks boy.. Though it wasn't v nice, i still ate it kaes.. HaaHs~ Anyway, on the 14th NOV 06', i went to town wf my sapphire and shiyu. To look for jobs (-_-) LoLs. A while then shiyu went hm lerrs.. Then my boy came find mIIee.. I'm sorwie!! I guess yUu know what i mean hors? HaaHs. Anyway, we were walking and walking around town. My leg hurts like hell cos of shiyu de heels.. Then my boy say he wann go shop at far east. Sapphire and i waited for him at 7-11 cos my leg hurts. & GUESS WHAT?? He brought a pair of shoes for MIIEE!! Sweet surprise! Thanks loads! I love surprises!! ^^ Hmmm.. Ytd went to vivo to work, with sapphire.. Quite fun actually derrs.. Jux too many rules & regulations lerrs. After my work, my boy came to fetch miiee.. Thanks again, for coming all e way down.. Thanks for the cheesecake though i didnt get to eat it.. LOLS! Thanks for evrything..
BoyFren: I really appreciate all the things yUu've done for miiee. Everything's sugary sweet. Everyday with yUu is like heaven. Though sometimes yOr gal can be quite princessy, yUu know she dun mean it right? Give miiee some time to adapt to the porridge life lahs.. KeKex..
I never know what the future brings
But I know you are here with me now
We'll make it through
And I hope you are the one I share my life with
And I wish that you could be the one I die with
And I pray in you're the one I build my home with
I hope I love you all my life
With Love,
'JeRiCa
Arrgh!! Sorry for not updating this blog.. Kinda busy with my life nowadays.. Anyway, my guy ish back from sailing!! Happi!! KeKex.. Going out with my sapphire and him lata.. Go cut hair lo!! HaaHs~ Hmmm... During the week tat my guy ish not by my side, i met up with Chobin, dex, etc.. Well, chobin.. NICE CAR EH!! The feeling ish jux great!! Thx Thx =D Anyway, much happened lahs.. Quarrelled wf 'him' in friendster.. Hais.. Sians lahs. Jux stop all these bahs. I love my guy now!! =D Be bringing his siblings and cousins to ZOO tmr!! HeHs.. Kaes lahs.. Today ish a short post yea? Sorry.. Gotta rush!! =D
Bonez KorKor: Cheer up yea? yUu'll find yOr beta half someday!!
SiJun: Be careful wf e ppl around yUu kaes? Don be too trusting!!
ShiYu: Go find a beta one lahs!! =D
LINYIN: MisS yUu lahs!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Xinq_bOyfReN: Thanks for everything!! =D
With Love,
'JeRiCa_DiaMonD
yesterday was ben's birthday! =)
went study with ping yesterday after that met up with ben. (it was a last minute idea la. so.... ya.)
anyway, we bought a 'small little' MANGO cake for him. that cake was damn nice i tell you. ok back to the 'celebration' we planned to distract him but he's just too clever la -_- so i ask him to pass me the key, i lock his car for him while he go toilet and ping go to the top to get everything ready. after that. i went to the toilet there to wait for him to distract him and when he reach we sang him a birthday song =)
everyone was looking at us k! but with the attitude that ping and i have, we dont care! haha.
well, although the cake was rather small, the 3 of us ate the cake till a certain extent that everyone was bloated -_- but its really nice la =D
ben: hope you enjoy it and like it ya once again happy belated birthday =)
At galfren hse now.. AhahS! Crystal crystal.. Thanks to yUu!! HaaHs~ Anyway, my precious is in camp now.. Kinda miss him eh. Crystal+Sapphire.. Sorry tat i've been spending more time with my galfren and have been neglecting yUu both.. Sho SorRy.. Anyway, will meet up with my crystal lata right mahs? Hais.. Talked to my beloved crystal on da phone. I know i know.. I myself detest the present miiee. I've noticed the changes in miiee. SInce 'he' thinks that this miiee tat i'm presenting now ish the real miiee, then let it be bahs.. I also don wanna say much to justify my actions anymore. I'm already v frustrated with my life liaos. So many things happened in one shot. Sometimes, i really feel like giving up everything. But, i don wanna let down the people around miiee.. HAis... So sick and tired of everything.. Galfren.. Don be like them alrights? Don add on to my burdens.. Thx Thx. Don forget tat we shall be the sweetest couple on earth! Don ah beng-ing with miiee too! HaaHs~ I'm adorable alrights? Actually, i'm glad tat we had an outburst ytd. At least both of us know where we stand in each other's heart. Right? & through tat, both of us understand each other better yea? Hais.. Test is coming.. One week.. Hmmm.. Don worry, will always put 1313 first derrs. HaaHs.. Kaes lahs. Hands tired liaos.. MiSSinG yUu!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
RiCa=BF XinG=GF
yUu knOw tOo!! LoLs!!
=)
With Love,
'DiaMonD_JeRiCa
was trying to find 3 person today.
1 of them is someone who is my friend for almost 14 years another two are someone who you know.
surprisingly, i cant find any of them.
called the phone. no one pick up.
called the house. no one at home.
called a few times more. its off.
woah. thanks leh.
thanks for making me worried.
thanks for not telling me where you all went.
thanks for not telling me anything.
thanks for making me like a fool calling everyone to ask about you.
thanks for taking up my study time and stop every 2-3 questions and call you.
thanks for everything man.
you all are the best out of the best already.
thanks alot!
once taught by my diamond.
heart ache -- heart broken -- heart died.
i think i'm at the last stage already ba. [and it's overflowing]
(shall this be my last post? i dont see any need in blogging i dont see anyone replying or bother!)
CRYSTAL
Hmmm.. Got a new guy in my life.. & he's so popular sial.. SianS. Evrytime got gal call derrs. HaahS~ Nvm. I've got FAITH!! Anyway, jux wanna let yUu know whateva decisions i've made. Not gonna regret it kaes? Don think so much and let time proves evrything. So far, feeling great when i'm with him. I am mIIee when i'm with him.. Feeling happy and relax. He's more than a lover.. He's like a very close frend to mIIee too. HaaHs~ Don worry lahs. &... Note: SO far, nothing wrong btw us.. Get what i mean mahs?? HaaHs! Hope yUu get it bahs. Jux wanna get on with my bloody life. Tat's it. Not gonna bother about what others say now liaos.. YuU know mahs? I wanna lead a life tat belongs to mIIee. Drifting apart?? Hais.. All i can say is jiayou jiayou bahs....
With Love,
'DiaMonD_JeRiCa
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